17 Years of Therapy as an Entrepreneur

Therapy didn’t start as a long term growth plan. It started as a quick fix to my challenges. I was building something that was finally working, the money was coming in, and from the outside, it looked like success. But inside, I was unraveling. I couldn’t sleep. My mind never stopped thinking anxious thoughts. Every win brought relief for a day, followed by a new layer of pressure. I didn’t want help; I wanted control. Therapy was a last resort, a place I walked into because I couldn’t think my way out anymore.

In the early years, I treated therapy like another optimization problem. I wanted a quick fix for stress, better focus, sharper decisions. But over time, I realized therapy wasn’t about upgrading the system; it was about understanding the human running it. It forced me to slow down, to recognize old habits, to examine new perspectives and be able to make choices that worked during the day and let me sleep at night.

Entrepreneurship rewards control — systems, forecasts, and execution. Therapy challenges control — it asks you to tolerate ambiguity and emotion. The tension between those two worlds taught me more about leadership than any book or board meeting ever could. I started noticing how my old patterns often shut out creativity, strained relationships, and how success without balance feels more like confinement than freedom.

There were years I thought I’d outgrown therapy, that I was “done.” But my thriving career proved otherwise and I invested in my own executive coaching. Co-founders, investors, employees, customers — all brought me back to the work within. The work was never about guaranteeing results, but rather succeeding in building a company while being in alignment with my values and my goals.

For most entrepreneurs, the emotional toll isn’t discussed openly because vulnerability doesn’t scale and isn’t rewarded. You’re expected to be decisive, inspiring, and composed — even when everything inside you feels uncertain. For most of us, success doesn’t erase self-doubt — it amplifies it. The more visible you become, the harder it is to admit you need help. But that help is what differentiates sustainable success from sudden collapse. You don’t need to wait for burnout to start working on yourself.

If you’re building something and feel the pressure stretching you thin, coaching isn’t a sign of weakness — it’s maintenance for the mind that makes it all possible. The business can only grow as far as you do. If you feel like you could benefit from more support, let’s chat.